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Originally uploaded 07 by LA'S DAZE
She's laying here beside me as I watch HGTV. She's so nice and snuggly, her little tummy rising & falling as she breathes. With the exception of the snoreing its a very peaceful scene... I lay over beside her w/ my face in her hair, and it hits me- She doesn't smell like a baby anymore. When did it happen? I've made certain to make myself stop from time to time and take it all in, to not take my time w/ her for granted. Etched in my mind are sweet expressions, games we've played, the way she says her "r's"..... I was so careful.... And yet still, its happend. I feel betrayed, like somehow I've been hoodwinked. Not long ago I held my friends sweetest little girl, she smelled sooooo- baby. She grinned that 'all to familiar' toothless grin & I was taken back in time..... We can't stop the clock... Turn back time, we just have to go willingly, or unwillingly, into the next season. She knows I don't like to think of her "getting bigger". Not long ago we were @ gap and she tried on an outfit , I was around the corner looking @ something, and her daddy says, "Awww, you look so much older in that" then, I heard her say," Then I dont want it, it will make mommy sad"..... I've got to get better @ disguizing it, I have to let go... So into this season of our lives I go, more unwillingly than willing, knowing that its all a part of the plan. Thank you Lord for your strenght and Peace, and thank all of you for holding my hand as my baby starts to let it go.... L A ( portions are reposted)