Thats what my cursor is doing as Im sitting here trying to figure out what to blog about...
Do you ever have those times when you have so much going on all at once and yet you can't even think of anything to say... No?? Me neither... Lol.
Hi Ya'll , wow how I've missed your beautiful faces!!!
Well, K & the boy broke up. We let him in our home and lives (against Chris's better judgement). He was right, I was very wrong. The boy was sneaking over when I went to NM to see my fam & also on Tuesday nights locking himself in K's room with her when hubbs & I were at a class at church. K got busted, & asked him to come over & take his lumps with her, he said nope & left her out to dry-alone. She cries every night, has trouble eating & sleeping, has no life, no cell, has lost all her priveledges & is on complete lockdown... He has already asked another girl to Prom, & has pic's of himself with a girl already up on his facebook.
I'm very happy it's over. I can see now that he has no character & certainly didn't care about her. This was her first love. She really loved him. My heart breaks for her, & yet I am so thankful that God was faithful & removed him. She and I are fractured. She blames me, & I am very angry. But I am also prayerful & know that God is the God of restoration & forgivness. I cling to that. Also to the fact that He say's that they have the truth in them, have been brought up knowing , so they will return to it...
I have made an appt. w/ a christian councelor next week for her. S (other former wayward daughter, ok still wayward, but Im speaking it as tho it were... ;) & I saw him today. Awesome man of God and hugely annointed. I truly believe God is guiding my steps right now because I am at the very end of myself with all of this -with both of my babies. I'm sure I'll have more to say as the next few week's unfold round here...
So much has happened, and so much deep dark pain~ I am really working towards forgivness in some other areas too, inspite of their underserving-ness ( its a word, uh-hu it is...) . I am making friends now. For about the last 7 months I wasnt the least bit intertested in moving foreward because I went through such a painful season.... Maybe not interested isnt the right phrase. I was just stuck, didn't know how... But God is placing some really wonderful girlz in my life & I am finally at a place where I can open myself up to them. Boy, relationship stuff is work huh?? I know God had work to do in me about why it was that I let myself get sucked in to such disfunction. Looking back I see it so clearly now. How exciting to realize over and over that I don't have to fight this on my own. Any of it. He is here fighting, all I have to do is know who I am in Him & stay prayerful. Ahhhh. Do that with me, okay??... Ready, Now say " Ahhhhh" & realllllly let it out.
Feel better?? I know I do. Okay, its your turn. Whats been going on in your world. I am seriously anxious to hear from you. It can be anything you wanna share. Just know, if you need encouraging or an ear (eyes) I am your girl!!
I just love getting to know y♥u better!!!
LYLAS/B ♥ LA