One Family's Journey through " Trials, Triump's & The Teen Years"...

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Saturday, January 8, 2011

A ride...

I took a stroll through my side bar last night and was saddened to see that so many others had also either closed their blogs or had taken up to a years hiatus. Its funny that when you start out on the blog journey its really a choice that you make to make public all of your family stuff. The good times, heart breaks, challenges, victories, and often times the dark parts of you that your struggling with . You think that sharing might help someone going through rough times. Maybe minister to them, give them hope. I thought I could be that, do that, share that, but what I found was that during a very difficult time in my life, the things I was sharing here were being used against me, used to hurt me. So this blog became a source of pain and anger for me instead of what it was meant to be, a place to share my heart and life with friends and loved ones. I started to wonder what had taken place in my bloggy friends lives that would have them not returning to their blog. Obviously they had attempted to do the same thing I had with hope for it and an expectancy of what it would be to them. The person that caused me so much pain is still around. In fact, hasn't changed one bit except has seemingly gotten even better at not being very Christlike and has moved on to continue to hurt and take advantage of other people (whom I pray have a close enough relationship with the Lord to learn the lesson I had to learn, way before I did). Which brings me to my long winded point. One very valuable lesson that Ive learned is while " I walk through the valley of the shadow of death" what does God promise us? That it will be easy, nope. That we can get revenge on that person? No. For me it is that although I allowed what was going on to deeply hurt me (and cause me to for quite a while to kick scream wallow and get very depressed) He. never. left. me. His promises were and are true (despite my circumstances) and that if I can just believe Him through these trials He promises to refine me, make me into what I was created to be and bless me for my obedience!!. ( although He does also promise that He will [defend] me, [protect] me and be the final judge for all things done good or bad, but thinking about those things will keep you in bondage to that situation. You must forgive to truly be set free!) . Whew. He must really think I'm something ( and He does you too!!). And because He does, it has given me the courage and strength to rise above the ashes and once again set claim to the things satan tried to steal from me, one of which is the joy this blog and all of its attributes brought me. (&You dear friend are one of those attributes). I'm sure you are prob wondering why in the world I'm being so candid here once more after just having shared all that with you. Well, honestly right now at this moment I'm really not sure except to say, I know this life is a journey, and Ive given this little bump in the road WAY to much of my time and energy. I'm ready to get on down the road. Wanna take a ride??
Till next time (very soon, I gatta lot to say ;)
LYLAS/B ♥LA

16 comments:

considerthelillies said...

welcome back to the blogosphere! God is good and will help us in our time of need! Here's to a great year ahead for you!

Leslie said...

Glad you are back. Keep posting...I'll be reading. I think I started after you left so add me: more2les.blogspot.com :o)

Carriage House Antiques said...

Always remember that there is NO Condemnation in Christ!! I remind myself of that everyday!!No weapon formed against you will prosper!!
Here's to a prosperous new year!!
Natalie

Tanna at The Brick Street Bungalow said...

LA, this is my first visit, thanks to your stopping by my blog so that I could find my way here. I am so sorry that you have had a bad experience with blogging. I truly don't know why some people feel the need to hurt others in that way. I pray that you will not find that experience again. Blessings to you, little sister. Tanna

Karrie said...

I've come to learn these are the lessons God wants us to know. Perservere in Faith!! :)

Betsy said...

Hi there LA~ Thanks so much for visiting my blog! I don't know how you found me, but I'm so very glad you did!

I can relate to the loss of some blog friends! It's always so sad to find out some of decided to leave the community...it really does leave a sense of loss, doesn't it? We become close and attached to each other even though we've never met in person.

Have a wonderful Sunday! :)

Melanie said...

Hey girly! Great blog post! <3

Here On Crow Creek said...

Leah thank you so much for the kind comment. I am so touched by your blog and now I am one of your peeps. Its so nice to meet someone like you who loves the lord and isnt ashamed to tell it. Praise the lord about your dad getting saved! That is awesome!

Robyn said...

Great post, and what a beautiful woman you are. I will get around to my blog one of these days.

Teresa@oursoutherncountryhomeandfarm said...

Thanks for coming by my place. You just sit right down and help yourself to anything you want. By the way, how do you make your cornbread if you don't do it in a skillet? Just curious. Please come back and follow, I'm gonna look for your follow button.

vintage vine said...

Leah, Thanks for stopping by my blog! I am glad you are back to blogging and I look forward to following you....I read down through some of your posts and I can tell you have a lot to share with us!!! Keep posting and we will all be here listening!

Kami Scott-Day said...

Hey girlie, I totally understand about people using what you say against you. Happen to me on my blog too. But then I just said; You know what, this is my blog, I should be able to say what I feel and if they don't like it then they don't have to read it. Right!? Hope you don't mind me following you and feel free to check in on mine! Love ya!
Kami

christy rose said...

Leah, Glad to see that you are back! I have been gone for awhile too! I just needed a little bit of a bloggy break but not I am back, for now anyways. Hope to see more of you soon! :)

Theresa said...

I can completely relate. I hope you keep your blog because I just found it ( from Bare Naked Tree) and started following you!

Jill said...

Well hello! Glad to visit you and will come again! I love your last line...I gatta lot to say! Me too sister!

God is GOOD ALL the time!

.Keli. said...

I love this post. : )