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Thursday, May 26, 2011

Refusing...


Its me again. It's 1:30am & I'm back in my room. I was going to stay the night with him but he doesn't sleep peacefully when I do. He remembers I'm there & opens his eyes to check & make sure I havn't left. So I have come back to hang out with my family that have traveled here. My 2 younger brothers, their girlfriends, my baby sister & mom are all here & it's been nice being surrounded by people who love him like I do. One thing about family, they show up. I am also so blessed because I also have friends that are family & my gosh have you showed up. You have blown me away with your capacity to love me & be my rock, encouragers & prayer warriors. Amazing. Thats what you are & I am so thankful.

  Tomorrow is a pretty big day. There is a tear in his liver & we are waiting to see (& believing that it will) heal itself. The alternative is horrifying to even consider. If it doesn't, the unthinkable with have to happen. They will reopen him. (The cursor is just siting, blinking in silence as I think about what that will mean for him....). So I won't think that way. He is being healed & God is his physician. Another thing that weighs sooooo heavily is that my time here is drawing near & I can't bare the thought of leaving. Thankfully God gives us strength for the day & just enough light for the step that we are on. I'm refusing to let fear creep in & control me because I know who holds each day in His hand. I'm very tried so I am signing off. I will be back with news as  soon as I know anything. Thank you for continuing to pray. I love you.

7 comments:

considerthelillies said...

oh, I will pray and ask my husband and family to pray also. The Lord is with you to uphold you, your precious son and your entire family! I will friend request you in Facebook if you don't mind, so as to keep up with more updates about the situation. My heart goes out to you!

Leslie said...

Sending more prayers up, Leah, and believing in his healing. ((hugs))

Joanne said...

Your faith and refusal of any negative thoughts are a true testament to your faith in God. Prayers from all your family and friends and people that have never met you or your son (Bloggers) surround your family and are lifted up to the Ear of the Lord. I believe that with all my Heart. You keep that faith as you have been. God is listening. God bless you and your Son. Blessings, Joanne

Sweet Tea said...
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Sweet Tea said...

Stpping by to check on you and get a status update. Praying!

*The Beautiful Life* said...

Hanging on your every word here....

And storming the gates of heaven on your behalf.

WIth tears in my eyes...

XOXO
Ruth

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